I am so sorry for your loss Lisa, I can't remember if I told you that but I read your post about your Mom passing. Anger is natural with it it seems, I know everyone is different but my Mom and I were joking/making fun of each other's rollercoaster emotions the week we packed up my Dad's stuff. like "Oh you're so in the anger stage - oh wait, now you're in denial!" we found weird humor in it anyway, it felt very all over the place for me (and still does). It might be a good thing that you are being cautious with driving anyway, I have found I am super clumsy and absent minded but especially the first couple weeks. Please take care of yourself, I can relate to the trauma being stirred up too. ugh like the grief isn't enough, wth is wrong with our bodies making us deal with it all at once. Again, sorry you are dealing with it too. It sucks. Right there with you about Medium too, I put a ton of effort in for awhile and like yeah. not really worth it sorry. I don't know what they think the future of the site is but if they can't find a way to amplify writers from more than a very narrow background/writing topic it feels kinda pointless for anyone else to try.