I can relate to this Yana. But it sounds like your energy is being drained. I wish you could take a trip to a healing retreat somewhere, to be alone and not have so much outside pressure on you. Anyone would struggle to deal with this on top of being in a tough headspace. I am so sorry you are in so much pain. I struggle to live with just one person when I am in a bad headspace, you are much stronger than you realize and I hope you find a way to carve out some breathing room and a pressure free environment for yourself where possible. Sending hugs and healing, hope you feel better soon. ❤️