I can't say I can imagine this way of life James but it is natural to want to avoid pain if one has been heartbroken in the past or is over the whole shebang I guess. I notice you don't mention family or friends, I hope you aren't completely detached in all ways, that seems a tough road. I do agree we shouldn't attach ourselves just for the sake of it as you say don't go along for the ride, the older I get the more frustrated and limited life can feel if I don't have enough freedom to do what I want. I can see the appeal of non-attachment sometimes in that regard. I know meditation can bring peace, I hope you enjoy the benefits of that and would be interested to read about your meditation practice. Take care, Steff.