I'm so sorry you went through this, you were only human as you say, and SO young. He was so much older than you, just because he was famous does not change the fact he had half a lifetime on your experience as an adult age wise. The adults in your professional and personal life should have done better and not put the onus of pleasing this man on you, regardless of his celebrity status. It's very disturbing and you are brave to share your story, I am sure you are not alone and this will help others come to terms with it who may have also been caught in his or other men's webs when there was a power imbalance. Thank you for writing this, it's beautifully written and rings 100% true, please ignore any rude comments from men or trolls who do not know what they are talking about.