I'm sorry you are having a rough time, you really are not alone in terms of stuff not getting read. It's much harder to find each other here now. I also have wondered lately if reads aren't recording like they used to as some of my stats are really wonky seeming, with email views not showing up as reads, for one thing. I have also heard there is a lag time with reads, it's all a mystery. All to say try not to take it personally, I know it's hard sometimes though, and some people are just shits and I have had people who I thought were really reading me show up as clap and runners so it's a weird one. Showing up, being vulnerable, and writing your truth is not easy, I am glad you can find solace in the kindness of one reader, and also non members might read your stuff and connect with it, it doesn't show up in payment but it doesn't mean it's not worth writing. I know it sucks though!