It's easy to have tunnel vision when we fall in love with the idea of something, and you put so much work and passion into your rural lifestyle it's understandable you wouldn't want to give up on it, but change is always best if it's not working for you. It's much better to acknowledge what you need for a more well rounded life, living in another country with one other human as your sole social source is a lot of pressure (take it from one who knows lol!). I think in an ideal world we would all get the best of both worlds, a place to retreat from it all, AND a place for when we want more stimulation. It's so tricky! I hope your move brings you much more balance and happiness, it's totally natural to be ready for another phase after making the initial big change you did, well done on listening to your inner guides on this, I am sure it wasn't easy!