It's really weird, I have also been thinking along these lines in a concentrated way. I weirdly have space this weekend, to be alone, something I crave as an introvert, but the first 24 hours have been weird. I can't relax. I keep thinking I don't want to "waste" this time, but also I really just want to do nothing lol. I think I'm just not used to it. I have been listening to music though, definitely helps me to relax.