Loved this Ellen, it's so inspiring and even though you had a negative/unfortunate headspace for a brief time I am sure you learned so much in the process of acknowledging and honoring your reality and resetting your self worth where it belongs. Maybe not everyone has to do this but I am sure it makes you such a thoughtful and sensitive human in the long run. Have you tried Yoga Nidra? It is my latest "Oh this fixes everything!" woo modal 😅, seriously it's so good though. Deep rest/brain and body feel so much better even with a short one.