Such an important message Lisa. I am so sorry you learned it the worst possible way. You still sound a bit hard on yourself to me. You were doing your best under extreme pressure and at the time you thought it would help. It's easy to see how anyone could get sucked into that cycle, especially with everywhere we look online telling us it's the best way forward. I am glad you found a way to pull out of it and prioritize self care and a more balanced life.