Ugh I am so sorry. When it rains it pours. But please cut yourself more slack. No one at your workplace had your back at your lowest ebb, the opposite it sounds like. It is not your fault you momentarily lost your footing. I am sorry and angry no one supported you in the way you deserved to be, I have faith you will move onto bigger and better things. I had cancer and it took me years to rebound, in some ways I still haven't. And grieving a parent is all consuming whether we want/have room for it to be or not. Have you thought about training as a yoga teacher? I am in a similar boat with feeling daunted by career stuff at a similar age. Keep your head up, you are stronger than you think. 💪❤️